Breathe

Two years ago our lives were altered in a pretty dramatic fashion. It was all God's will and I learned to walk in the victory of that moment. The key phrase was learned. It wasn't something that was easy. It took a lot of tears, fears, and faith to get there. And in true honesty, there are days that I still have to fight hard to find the victory. I replay God's promises all day to myself, and to Him.

I went through the last 2 years though holding my breath. Every month that our mortgage was due I held my breath that our account held enough money to cover it. When school supplies and school clothes were needed again, I found myself holding my breath. Doctor visits, again with a sucked in breath. Every phone call and visit with our precious friends the Massey's was accomplished with a breath caught between inhale and exhale.

I didn't intentionally start doing this. It was more of a self perseverance. I am not sure if I was waiting for "the other shoe to fall". I don't believe that line of bull and am thankful that our God is not a god of superstition. But somehow this was a defense for me.

On Leap Day, I felt the Spirit of God ask me to breathe. It WAS LIKE he whispered to my heart, "Exhale." As I did I felt a peace wash over me and fill my lungs with a fresh breath.

We took the kids to dinner that night, which is a BIG treat for us and just celebrated Gods Faithfulness. A Faithfulness that carried a family of 5 all the way to China to make it a family of 6. Brought us a children's Hospital with a broken heart but allowed us to leave with a renewed Spirit. A faithfulness that led a devoted husband and dad to step out in faith into a new career. A faithfulness that allowed this same man to find a new definition for success. A faithfulness that sings over this family with shouts of great joy. And the same One who quieted our fears, taught us to breath again because of His great Love.